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{ The Good Life } 3.14.21 Rest. Rest. Rest. My body has been telling me this a lot lately. I am growing on all levels. With each new shoot I can feel my life and my soul being fed and supported in abundant new ways. The first spring tulips leaves are poking out of the ground in our south facing garden. Spring is coming whether we want it to come or not. How joyous! The rebirth of all things has begun. Spring meeting winter. You can just feel it. What is Good? 3.14.21 Change c

{ The Good Life } 3.13.21 How wonderful today was. How wonderful it felt to just take today was it came. This has been a practice that I have been experimenting with. I have been creating structures within my day and then letting life flow through them. It has been freeing and also has allowed me to accomplish many a great thing. Today wasn't only just wonderful but it was full of moments of stillness and peace. I have been cherishing these moments and sensations. What is Goo

{ The Good Life } 3.12.21 I have finished my first week holding space at my new job. I think that it will be the perfect spot to foster and grow in this new chapter of my life. I have always been one to settle in with the ebb and flow of life. But now, I am consciously choosing to build my home in the tides. Not on the shore where the wild waters can't touch me, but right with them so they can guide me to where I am meant to be going. The Flow leads me. The more I have steppe

{ The Good Life } 3.11.21 When you enter a new place of work it can be quite daunting. New patterns to be built. New rules to play by. New people to meet. There is something in mine that feels like home. It could be the atmosphere they have set up or it could be the old homes that the business is built into. Either way something homey this way comes. What Is Good? 3.11.21 Cleaning The Dust is Healing. As I was dusting the stairwell today it hit me. These small actions are hea

{ The Good Life } 3.10.21 Today I passed out during two guided meditations. They hit hard. I was in trances like no others. I must have been a bit more tired than usual. I am going back to redo the meditations. It felt good to be brought to such a deep state. I love the intricate beauty of the mind. I am blossoming. What is Good ? 3.10.21 Flow. I have been hitting flow with such velocity and grace that time is slipping away from me. I get lost in the acts. I find myself hour

{ The Good Life } 3.9.21 It takes a moment to change. It takes a choice to blossom. It takes a breath to bloom. I am the alchemist in my life. I turn this simple metal into gold. I manifest and create. I am a being closely woven into the fabric of the Source and the threads of the Universe. What is Good? 3.9.21 I am my own magic. It hit me last night and again today. It hit me hard. I was observing people I admire in the world soar into new heights and unlock their power.

{ The Good Life } 3.8.21 Mornings have become a sacred space for me. I am able to slip out of bed, start boiling water for coffee and then dive deep into myself. Today is one of those days where the air feels crisp and the sun light is starting to creep through our windows. I am happy. Boris is snoring. Natasha is peaking out from under the fire places. The world is calm for a second. What is Good? 3.8.21 Boris and Natasha. My pug has a best friend its is a Russian tortoise t

{ The Good Life } 3.7.21 Choosing Joy. A new integration of an old idea is forming. In my process I have been struggling to acknowledge what in this world, in this life, in this moment is working. I don't know if this is a training that I have be repeating since a young age or if fear of my own success has shielded my eyes. What I do know is that I am here to combat it. I am here to integrate my success into my being. I am here to integrate what is good into my life. I do not

Recently, I had two paths set down before me. Both of said paths will lead me to success but take me down different avenues. How do you pick when you know that you will succeed regardless? You don't pick. You recognize that you need space and time for the answer to come to you. When this opportunity to decided popped up I knew that I would know when I knew. I sat. I waited. I did the work. This was the truth. This has been the truth. It will always be the truth. You won't kno

Vladimir and I met while we were both working on a cruise ship in early 2019. I was a singer and assistant cruise director at the time. He was helped manage the restaurants. Ships are a small world to live on but they seem ginormous. You can walk through the ship and not get seen if you really want. For us that wasn't the option. We had a small encounter early on in my contract. I was setting up for Sabbath on the ship, as the Assistant Cruise Director it was my job to make s

One month ago I left my job at a coffee shop in rural northern Minnesota. It was a pleasant job but it took more of me than it provided. I decided that I had enough and needed to move forward. I was one of the head baristas and their Social Media & Marketing Manager. The job itself offered me a little creative outlet and some social interaction that was hard to come by during this current pandemic. It paid me minimum wage, which in Minnesota is $10 an hour, which for me allow

Hiking Angel's Landing I am scared of heights but I won't let that stop me. I won't let it control me. I won't let it consume me. I know that this sensation is one part emotional and one part rational. I have the ability to separate the two in order to achieve new heights. I am speaking here both in the elevation of the terrain and the elevation of my life. I remember from the earliest age having gross sensations regarding height. I would break down. I would become immobili

When we are born we are sensitive beings. We are in touch with our needs and our desires. At this stage we lack the ability to communicate in order to get what we want. As we grow our communication skills continue to blossom. We learn how to ask for what we need and we lose the sensitivity to what we desire. As time goes on we desensitize our selves through stimuli, training, and conditioning. This is important to learn but it is even more important to unlearn? I was having a

As I think about today I am filled with much joy but I am filled with much sorrow as well. We are leaving an era of hatred, lies, and bigotry behind. We are entering an era progressing towards healing and unity. At the same time there is almost a half million of us missing. The world is rejoicing in the light that is leading but the country is splitting at the seams. I am sitting here by my fire in northern Minnesota wondering what is to come of this. I just read the quote,

Mi amor. It feels like a lifetime that I have known you. It feels like everyday is a lifetime with you and we have lived many. Though we have spent a lot of our time oceans apart I have never felt closer to anyone. I can’t believe that two years has already passed. It feels like just yesterday we were dancing and drinking in the crew bar and then stumbling up to open deck to watch the stars. But here we are! Two years into the most important and magical relationship that I ne

This year started off with flames. Flames of passion, of inspiration, and of self. We spent New Year’s Eve up at our cabin on Crane Lake. The time was spent playing cribbage, cooking, and enjoying the festivities. It was a small moment with family. Our cabin is located in a small bay on crane lake. It is my little place of peace and ease. We were blessed with weather that was more than favorable. We went ice fishing but more for the aesthetic than for act of actually catchin

I am in awe that 2020 is ending. Where did the time go? What did I do with it? To be honest, I know exactly where it went and what I did. It just feels like it slipped through my fingers without a moment dragging. I have spent the last three months working with a coach. It has been amazing to work on my inner-self and to go after my desires. This journey has been a lot of unlearning and a lot learning. Specifically I am talking about specificity. Making choices in your life

I have been thinking a lot about success and my relationship with it. I grew up in a home where we were told that we would succeed if we went after something and dedicated ourselves to it. That after years of hard work success would come. That was it. It was neither a destination or a feeling. It was just an ethereal idea that you could one day achieve. I have become aware that this thought doesn’t serve me best. Success must be defined or how will we get there. There can be

My Grandma and I. (circa 2014) My grandma had a stroke yesterday. They rushed her to a hospital and gave her a miracle drug that cleared the clot and she is now recovering. This drug has a 30% chance of working and she made it in that slim percentage. She had a literal and physical stroke of good luck. I don't know if you believe in angels. I do. I have had quite a few interactions with them. A whisper. An Image. A push. During a session of Ignation prayer/visualization at co

I am writing this in the basement of a coffee shop on my break. Cuddled up with my mask and a ratty old flannel. What many lives this year has been. I am thinking back to where it started and where I am. My name is Ian meaning God, The Source, The Universe is Gracious. Gratitude and Thankfulness are written in my name. I wanted to clue you in into the ten things from the last year that I am thankful for: My Time At the Cabin - I spent more time at my cabin this year than I